sometimes photos create the illusion that lives are perfect and i think it's important to recognize that they are not. take for instance, my instagram feed. (@angdoran79 if you IG too) it's mostly full of my joys, prides, and loves. is it an accurate reflection of my life? yes and no. it is absolutely an outlet for me to find and share the happiness and joy in my life. that's the thing about me-i'm a glass half full kind of girl. always looking for the bright side, an optimist. my happy little feed does not tell you that my heart hurts so badly right now because of a situation that is out of my control. but it's there. or that i've been aching for a baby for the last 3 years...nah, it doesn't. my photography and my family are my happy places-where i go to escape life's sometimes ugly realities. someone once told me "it's not what happens to you, but how you handle it." and while i am not always handling the things the right way, i try to always keep that in mind. and i have my share of crummy days but even on those days, i'm still looking for the beauty. life is just too short.
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| Feeding the ducks. The geese were a little pushy and K wasn't really down with that. Also, Daddy got goosed. Ha!! |
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| gloomy morning turned fun |
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| Lining up the shot with Daddy |
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| a little after nap playtime |
Awe Angela. I know everyone goes through good and bad times. You're right, looking at your pictures, I see a picture perfect family! I love that. But I guess I forget that its not always "perfect". I don't want to be nosy, but if you need anything, I'm here! As far as a baby, I totally feel you. Oh how I want a baby! We're not trying to have one, in fact we're trying not to have one. :( Just not the right time. Oh but we have accepted that there is no right timing. We'll just see what happens!
ReplyDeleteBut, these ducks! I remember them. King is a brave one!
You are so sweet, Sharmaine! thank you so much. ahhh, it's such a funny thing, that timing! it has a way of knowing before we do. i love that you guys have other goals in mind right now-that is awesome. keep working at those and the rest will fall into place. xoxo
DeleteSo much truth. It's easy to look at beautiful photos of happy kids and assume that it sums up someone's life, but you're only human. I hate hearing that you're struggling, even though I know we all do. The baby thing...it gets me right here. I'd love to tell you that I'll put in a good word for you and pull a few strings and see what I can do. But in reality, all I can do is be a listening ear, if you ever need it. It's never made sense to me why deserving families with love to give struggle with fertility while families who are stretched beyond their means manage to produce a small city's worth of children. It makes no sense. My hope is that, whatever it is that is meant to be for you and your family, that you will find peace and fulfillment in that. I'm always here if you need to more than Instagram or blog about it. ;)
ReplyDeleteThis means more than you know, Naomi! I have been tempted to try and contact you for you cell or email several times, just to say hello. I got Ashley's and it's fun to check in every once in a while. My email is angdoran79@yahoo.com if you would like to share them! xoxo
DeleteI got your reply, that I missed this reply. ;) Not sure how it works...if I should be getting emails when you reply or what? I'm so clueless sometimes. Anyway, I am sending over an email right away with my digits, girl. (Did I just throw you back to the 90's, or what?) Ha! Check in any time!
DeleteSo fun! Love the firetruck buddy!
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